This hurts. It's overwhelming. My chest is frozen with pain. There were no signs. I didnt think it was even close. How? After almost three years can it all just be shut off. How can it be so easy for him when I feel unable to breath. My head hurts from the tears. I wish I could go back to a few days ago. When nothing hurt this much. When everything was okay. I may have been in ignorance but it was certainly blissfull.